No, im not giving up yet.

it hurts. it really really hurts.. to think i've been watching ulty vids yesterday, reading notes of teamates, getting so fking psyched up to die for this team i've played so long for.
all these effort shames. nothing else but shames me for fking up, for not able to even play for this team i call home.

IVP'10

LET'S GO SPU. THIS IS THE TIME.

This time, we'll run and run and run.

Shirts all soak in sweat and mud, we'll keep running, keep running,

keep trashing through the quaters, through the semis.

And we'll run to the fields of the Finals, the Ultimate Match.

The Ultimate Team.

The team we know Winning taste the sweetest.

I BLEED SPU.

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Xinwang

GOT A JOB AT XINWANG!! HAHAHA.
PAPAYA SOUP EVEREEDAY. <3

To, Ahma

As we stand in front of you, giving our last blessing along the chants of the monks, i remember the day you last spoke a word to me. The day 3 years ago, you ask me to be a good girl, and listen to Mommy.. i remember.
Im glad i gained the courage to see your ashes that day you were cremated.. just wanted my memory of you to be the you laying peacefully in the coffin, but i guess bro and sis were right. Your ashes give a closure, the closure of everything.. that you're really gone.

Ahma, may you go on and live amoung blooming flowers, large green fields and chirping birds in light blue skies, with the chants of Buddha and smell of lotuses endlessly filling the air.

Thank you for everything you've given me, you'll always always be deep in my heart.
I'll be a good girl, and listen to Mommy.
Ahma, gam xia.

Million Dollar Baby

Was looking round Bro's dvd library to occupy the night and he threw me the Million Dollar Baby. He said its that one film that pulls you in so deep into the characters that you cant help feeling every microbit of emotions they go through. And repeated how much a legend Clint Eastwood is, acting and directing.
To me its truely a film that leaves you with such heavy heart, you really shouldnt watch it before bed. Din expect the story to turn out the way it is, made me teared so badly. Its depressing and yet so life affirming at the same time. Plot and lines are smart, characters and actings are perfect.
Definately definately one of the best film in the decade.

But now I've trouble sleeping..

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(March 4th, never would i know this is the day Ahma will leave..)

Little House

I think of you alot everyday, but its something i can never let you know..

Calvin Klein model

Took a year to complete, finished the features many many months before and lost the feel to continue since, till 2 days ago. Haha i like how it looks abit like Amanda Seyfried. Dear John's good! :)

Dear John

"That's the big mistake a lot of people make when they wonder how soldiers can put their lives on the line day after day or how they can fight for something they may not believe in. Not everyone does. I've worked with soldiers on all sides of the political spectrum; I've met some who hated the army and others who wanted to make it a career. I've met geniuses and idiots, but when all is said and done,we do what we do for one another. For friendship. Not for country, not for patriotism, not because we're programmed killing machines, but because of the guy next to you. You fight for your friend, to keep him alive, and he fights for you, and everything about the army is built on this simple premise. "
— Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)