Please God, i need you now.

Live high. Live mighty. Live righteously.

Jason Mraz, Live High in Paris.

Douglas & Jamial passing by Xindi at the sideline

Douglas: Aye Xindi, we're disqualified for the next match.

Xindi: Hur, why?!

Douglas: Jamial's not happy with the referee, and shouted F word at him.

Xindi: Omg! Jamiaal, why you always like that one???

I think they cramped throu their next game.

Urgh training's cancelled today. Kang, i want spag on fri!!

I enjoy sending that Wong kid 2 pics of W* every night.
I've got over 20 pics of him in my memory card.
Im not gonna upload them onto picture stream.

WONG, WHO?

Haha. Anyway, both of us gonna drag ourselves outta bed at 5:30 in the morn latr, travel all the way to panjang for a, i hope, sumptuous breakfast. Kang's cooking SPAG for us!! Uh okay, not literally for us, since i beg him to cook our shares. But gosh, im actually looking forward to tasting e guy's cooking. Haha!

Review on Kang's spag tmr. Uhh its 2am already...

In a team, we can achieve anything.

Bro's SMU team crowning champion at Grab.Huck.Score 07.

My team dashing into e semi-finals at Grab.Huck.Score 08.

''I love team-sports. With the right people, those games provide an experience that is hard to duplicate else where. We remember our moments: the time we dived and caught a Frisbee (throw in a scoring pose), the time we denied that opposition goal, the time we crossed the finish line. Individual sacrifices, brilliance, commitment. It inspires the rest; it infects the rest. Team-spirit is complex, is opium, and ultimately, is formidable.
In a team, we can achieve anything.
I like the sound of that. "

I'd never truely understand these words when he blogged about wining Grab.Huck.Score last year. Now becoming part of a team, playing for such intensive sports like Ultimate; theres no denying team sports provide the greatest experience one can hardly ever find elsewhere. Its the connection between each indivisuals in the team; the will to sacrifice for one another, the will to pull through rock bottoms with one another, the will to burn the opponents and triumph in glory with one another, and too actually feeling warm to see each other doing something great on field. These emotional connections, it can never be more true with hours after days after months of seeing each other drenched in sweat, frantically catching for breathes, breaking down upon setbacks, and keeping up the wills to fight their own barriers. And all this reaps team-spirit; trusting in the selves, and trusting between the selves; the strongest force that achieves all things.

A path is right ahead of us, to triumph in NYP Invitationals.

Drown me in the sea of the light. I'll forget who i am; who you are. And the hurt between us.

Layout Virgin no more!!

19 November - My first layout. =)

Layout practice, or rather 'Breaking teh Barrier' today was hella fun fun fun!
I loove rainy days!

Now next aim, THE GREATEST. Haha, kidding!

Finallyz day

Its my day today again! Haha! Tonza things worth celebrating for. First, finally finally met HH for lunch. After sucha long long time since we met. That super bhb dude never changed, but just right to calm my nerves. Was damn scared i wouldnt know what to speak when i see him, but we still hit it off like how we always do online. Very good meal. =)
Then it was training! Man, i swear that was e most fruitful training i ever had since e start of SPU. Its the kinda days, u feel urself putting in a real 100%, and feeling u'd totally made the most out of urself. D-ed quite afew discs, i hardly believe i have e ability to; or should i say speed and courage. Attempted quite some dives; though all failed to save the discs; but man, im seriously glad im breaking e barrier finally. Okay maybe the downpour before that made the field extremely welcoming today. But that aggro, that desire; i finally see it in me. Gonna really train hard for ACJC friendy in Dec. Quite excited to see what im worth of. GOO ME! Heh.
Okay. Now, im gonna keep the last thing to myself. =)
Alrite, but its a great day, apart from 2 WTH falls. =.= One while i tripped over a step climbing up to T1. Yes i know e guy behind definately saw it, and must be laughing his arze off to class. Another while chasing for Sucka Josh's disc, i was erm overwhelmed w 'desire', and ran onto e wet steps w my boots. It bleed and it still hurts ...

=)

Joseph Chang's new film!! Really hope they'd play it in Sg. =)

Anyway, today's a good goood day. Hee.

Happy Birthday

Its hard to believe how time flies, soon it'll be our tenth birthday we're going throu together. And i hope there'll be many many ten years to come!
Now hon; from the deepest of my heart, all the very very very best in life. The roads' not gonna be easy but remember, i'll always be there for u if u need someone to throw ur heart to, to drown in ur tears with, and scream Mayday's song together with! Haha!
Heres to u,

Happy birthday, my friend.For the ninth year. =)

Wo zhi dao chao luo zhi hou
yi ding you chao qi
Mei she me liao bu qi <3

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The song is about being truly happy. Sometimes when you get hurt so many times, you decide to withdraw behind a wall of outward smiles to protect yourself. You mistakenly believe that if you won't try to love again, dream again, try again or even live again, you won't be hurt again. But this song suggests that this way of living is not really living and hence you cannot be truly happy. So the song says shed your protective covering and live again, love again, try again. And be truly happy again.
After so long, i finally told Bro everything im going through. All these tough times i've been having.
He told me, "Qinyi, its not that hard to cope. In fact, the route's already layout for you. You just don't want to walk it. You hate to face that thing's gonna be hard, you want the fastest way out; but thats not going to happen, so you give up thinking you can never cope with this." It was a really good talk with Bro and Sis. And right after Bro left the room, i come across this new Mayday song online. Its like everything's planned out. It just coincides with everything of the night.
If you have the will, there will always be a way. Its just part of living.
Thanks Bro, thanks Sis; so much. <3

Evan Yo's Liang Ren MV

Was browsing throu the channels and chanced upon this mv. I like how the director ties the building to the monochrome, lonely theme of the mv. The angles he catch truely bring out the grand yet lone and silence of the architecture, fitting so nicely into the song

aggrrro

i've never been so positive bout changing negativity to power myself up. But darling, this time im gonna freaking prove you, im no turtle. even if i am, im gonna show u turtles have brains too.

TO JASMINE PNG HUI YING!

O's in 2 weeks. Girl, JIA YOU!!

Keep pushing hon. It hurts seeing u break down so many times for Os. Trust me, i know u, u're a very strong girl in within. U can do it one!

Soon it'll be all over, n i promise i'll do my best to make it for evaaarrie meetings u jio me. Soon soon soon, we'll hit e kbox N CONQUER EVERY MAYDAY SONGZ. N go Lee's Guitar gig together to see Mayday again!

Keep going love, im here behind you. Arzehole. =)

SIM Invitationals

First thing, Good job SPU! It was a mere step away from clinching e medal. But Recognition, WE GOT IT. Its heartwarming hearing SMU say it was a tough fight w SP. Only 5 months since we'd started out, playing with people who played for 5, 6 years, thats really a compliment.

Yet that apart, SIM Torney was a dissapointment for SPU 3. We only managed to play the matches within our pool which both we lost, so we werent seeded into any more games. It was shock even to ourselves, everything ended too fast. People not on form, having the wrong mindsets, many sinful reasons obscuring us from performing to our standards that day. All dissapointed, guilty, and raged up, we've promised next competition we're gonna do justice to ourselves and e team.

Nevertheless, the times with SPU 3 was really great.

~Sheralin, Angela, HweeSiang, Josh, Siegfried, Yangyi, Yangjie, Edmund, Yewyong.

You guys let me know the importance of teamates.

And truckloads of gratitude to Yangyi, thanks for all the efforts u've put into SPU3. We really appreciate it.

Now guys, SMU Invitational's in 2 weeks time. We fell hard during SIM, we're coming back stronger than before!

GOO SPU! =D

GRAB THAT DESIREE. Hahaha!

SIM Invitationals tmr

Pool A Pool B Pool C
SIMimplify SMU PAPERCUT o'SIM
SPU 1 SPU 2 SPU 3
NYP CHUN NYP QIU NYP XIA
NYP DONG SIMulate

Competiting agaisnt SIM and NYP Ultimate.
Im not gonna let everyone who'd stood by me throu the trainings down expecially my team, the girls, and most importantly Angela, whom i really wanna thanks for having so much faith in me, picking me up everytime i fall, and pointing out all my flaws and being so true to me. Angela, i really really appreciate every encouragement u gave me, everything u've nagged me. If its not for u, i never'd dare to face so much bout myself. Its cheeky, but gotta say, its a blessing to meet u in my team. Hehe. =)
As the vice-cap and a player in my team. I dare say, i've huge confident in SPU3, each and every indivisuals all have such distinct talents, and it really warms me to see everyone having their own expectations and desires. All the breakthroughs, the endless efforts they gave in. Not only me, everyone'd battled with themselves training for this competition. Now reflecting so much, it seems my fear for e matches tomorrow isnt that necesary anymore. Seeing how much everyone'd put into training for the comp, im motivated. I cant lose to them man. Haha.
Tmr, UNLEASH THE DESIRE, UNLEASH THE AGGRRRO! We're gonna make the first ever comp SPU's joining a damn good one.
For myself, for my team, for SPU; im putting all my best into it.
Yangyi, Angela, Sheralin, Josh, Yangjie, Siegfried, Edmund, Yewyong, Hweesiang, Qinyi. May we clinch something tommorow. ^^ And take care Keith. ^^

Seattle Riot!

Nobody Knows

Such a nice nice film. I like how the director chooses his scenes, from how the little girl prefers to wear her squeaky little shoes out to each and every glance by the children; it speak nothing else but the gentle and beauty of every child. Because it is so genuine, its near impossible to avoid the heartbreak of its reality in the story. This is one reason why i love art films, they speak of things no one dares to or even thought of.

SIM training

Going for training so long and seeing nothing alike of a breakthrou seriously turns me off.
Man, i dont wanna be an useless girl in the team, worst, a girl who actually harms the team. Yesterday's training was really a wake up call. How many times i got myself into the endzone, and let e disc slip pass my hands or becoz of my mental barrier, miss the disc i could have layout to catch. Shameful. And many times, my teamates went for such good deeps, i could have threw a huck over but becoz of my confidence, wasted their runs.
Time to push my limits; this SIM competition, im gonna be the girl i wish to be.

Note

I've been changing too much. I hate to admit it, im becoming more and more ugly these days. I used to think so good of everyone, and now i dont even bother to fathom them before i start grumbling and bitching to the girls. I made too much assumptions obscuring people's true selves. Really gotta be less subjective and accept each indivisual, asshole.

Atonement

Very very good movie, with such a heartwretching story. Had my heart aching for hours; i cant imagine making such a mistake even using a whole lifetime atoning for it is not enough...

update

Okay a lil update bout my life lately.
Hmm.. money very tight. Gotta save for soo many things. Braces, A*mei's gig, duffle, a new pair of cleats, club jerseys, few albums i love so much. After much comtemplating, i decided not to get underarmour since im not to that high standard yet and its not so essential for handlers. So good thing.
Just submmited my term proj, e hub design 3 days ago. Took me a whole lotza hardwork getting my hub right, building e model, and doing e documentations. Even my family wes in tension. Haha! My first taste of being an archi student, also marks e beginning of e 3 years of Architorture. For almost 4 days before my submission, i've average of 3 hrs sleep per day. Blasted e room w Madonna, Nelly Furtado, Timbaland etc etc to keep myself awake. Was all drained out, but really glad it went quite smoothly. Crit on next monday, gotta put in all my best selling my hub. I need an Ace!!
Okay now on a lighter note, Freezebee and SIM ultimate competitions' coming! Cant wait~! Really wish my team'll champ e comp since we're going to e novice catagory. Now, YUNKANGSHENG. Get well real soon! We need our chickin captain! =) With 2 comps in line, cant wait to commit into frisbee once more. Disc all day not worrying bout schoolworks. Thats fantasy come to life. Hehee.

Six Plus

Its been four five years since they last came out, just a debut album and lost since then. So many years have past, i still think they've e best rappers around in e chi music industry. Okay other than Machi. But i love how they clash hip hop and rock together, forming sucha one of a kind genre for themself. Other than them, no one had ever tried it even till now. I see no reason why they should be pulled from the scene. Sucha pity. Lol maybe e lead fell too many times on stage, which i'd apparently seen twice. Haha!

Archi kids

Architecture Reject says:
if you guys have no plans and want to spend count down doing work at my place please gimme a call at 9*******... i know its pathetic but its what archi students do... they do work while other's are enjoying.

Quoted from Chris bro, Chester's blog. My gosh, its soo true...
The thought of not been able to commit so much to spu in future saddens me. But what to do? Studies come before fun. Moreover i've decided to pursue Archi in Sg; which means i gotta really get goody grades to enrol me into NUS in e end of this 3 years. Its gonna take lootza hardworks and self discipline...

Tizzy Bac

Tizzy Bac! Like this band alot. They're one of e more renowned underground band in Taiwan. I remember seeing their poster somewhere in school saying they're coming to esplanade, but couldnt find it anymore. Think i missed it..
Anyway, thanks all who cared; and Jas for e great great dinner. Nothing beats having the best gf n goodfrens 'round. I talked to Mum bout it and am so glad i spoke to her. =)

A*MEI STAR TOUR

I missed it last year for Os, im soo not gonna miss it this year! Uhh, now i wish Cheer Chen'll hold another gig too. K, gonna start saving for A*MEI now!! =D

沉睡的青春 trailer

Bugs do document their tiny lives too.

Noon, dusk, night.
Very very interesting shots by Bugs of e view from his window. Never knew yewtee's so beautiful at night.
Shit. Now everyone knows where he lives. I din say he lives on e 26th floor...
Hahaha!

Jam Hsiao - Forgive

I used to fantasize the lead guy in e mv. Haha! Watched quite a few taiwanese films he starred in, but never know his name. Geee.Okay thats that, just wanna upload e mv for my convenience.

Hats tourna, AWESOME.

Today's Hats tourna, was totally SHIOOK. I've been taught so much n learnt so much. Though i din get much disc, or should i say only 3 throughout e whole day? Haha, but its totally worth each n every cents of e $10 registration fee. The players there are just too good, and really generous with their teachings. It took me aback when one of a defender whose making me actually guided me throu e game, that sweet lady actually coached me where to run, when to do in-cuts and stuff during the game; and even personally walks to me to tell me bout my mistakes during half time. And really a heartfelt thanks to my teamates too, who took care and taught me alot. Things learnt today:
1) Always take what the defender gives you. Shes behind u preventing deeps, dash forward. Shes in front of you, go for deep and jambreak forward for in-cuts.
2) During horizontal stacks, always form e 3-4 formation. When a mid gets e disc, one handler should run forward to take his running lane, e other 2 handlers keep up e line for handling.
3) While defending, always take note on the hip. Normal ppl dont fake their hips, so it determines e real direction e man's going, never take cue from the shoulders.
4) Read your man, understand the one u're defending well. If shes good in deeps, always stand behind her, let her gain as lil ground as poss.
5) On defence, never use 100% speed to mark, most probably u'll be left behind by a jam; use roughly 60%, and dash 100% when e disc's on air. (that is if ur timing's zun)
6) On cup-defence, handlers should be fast to swing among themselves, poppers should always be ready to get e disc from poached handlers; and deeps should be ready for disc once poppers get hold on it. Lotza timings to train.
7) While doing in-cuts, always do a full cut, never a half one to confuse e handler and mid on next lane.
8) On horizontal stacks, mid-mids always take e initiatives to cut.
9) On offence, when forced forehand, 3 lanes on left of handler should always be ready to cut. Vice versa.
10) ONLY CHOOSE MAN TO MARK WHEN U'RE ON DEFENCE! Haha!!
It was an honour to be playing with and against the best teams in Sg like Freakshow, DK n Shiok. And i really have to mention e 4 SPU dudes in my team who totally impressed them - Alvin, Benedict, Derek n Fear. Im not gonna keep my praises, they really played very very well! And im very proud of them.
I always admire ZD's skills n speed, and totally good plays. Hope we can all bond together, because i seriously think if we're able to, in one year SPU'll definately be able to beat NYP n SMU ultimate. We're all passionate frisbee kids of SP, its time we get together, have real fun n kick some arses! =D
Last line, GOOD DAY MAN!

HATS.

Hats tourna tmr! Really really excited for it. Hell knows i may gonna be e worst player in e team. But gotta say its really good exposure cum experience having to play in hands w players outside. Saw from my list, theres few DK players in my team. DiscKnights, as i know is one of e best team in Sg. Cool, hope to learn something from them.
Gonna put in my best in e games and to all i can, make it a good experience! Jambreaks, cuttings, stallcounts, up calls, force defences, faking, calming of self and be smart. Theres sure lots to do in frisbee. Haha.

Japan's Buzz Bullets v Seattle Sockeye 2005

Thats so much to reflect, so much to improve, so much to learnn.
GO QIN. =)

Zhang Yu - Si Bai Long Ying

Been long since i last got moved to tears by a song.
Its quite an olden chinese adaptation. About a girl who was sold at six by her mother for 4 silvers, in exchange for her elder brother a wife. Specially like the chorus -

Clouds covered half a moon that night,
the unseen half must be at my destination.
Perhaps thats the only way to think;
to believe its only the moon that have distanced.

Twenty years after, she was too forced to give up her fifth daughter. There she realized,
It is never the moon that was affected; its a life.

Vivian Hsu - Ta Ta

One of the classics i'll never forget.

New Blog

Yes, new blog - new phase of life. Time to ditch those inglorious ignorant past, and grow up.
I never have the discipline to blog and reflect occasionally, actually im a total failure in self discipline. So i hope to keep myself on track throu this journal. In other words, its time i take my life seriously.
And adding on, its really time i quit being an antisocial kid, which i've been since i last close down my public blog and start a private one. But it sure doesnt feel as free blogging for the mass than blogging for myself. So private reflections will go to the personal one. Rite, thats all for e intro! :)