2008

2008 has been a rather rough patch for my life. Graduating from secondary school, coming into a totally new surrounding and culture. Been immerse in Architecture, studying everything from Tadao Ando to floor slabs, roof rutters... Becoming a sports person, a totally ridiculous thing i'd do in my past. And most importantly, been force to ditch that lazy, undiscipline, rather loserish attitudes i've been praticing in Regent.
I had a hard time catching with everything.
I fail to discipline myself to ditch the laze and be a more hardworking kid in the fast-pace archi class.. It seriously killed my results against all the hardworking kids.
Its hard catching up to be a sports person. It was miserable feeling so loserish in the club. Everyone can run, everyone can jump. The pace was fast, very fast - 6 months since SP Ultimate has been up, and the the vast recognition it'd gained is "ridiculous". I cant say i've become good player. But i'll applaud myself for surviving throu the bitchy times having to show my weakest link out so apparently to everyone. Im glad i held on, if not i'll never find the beauty of sports, the passion for Ultimate, and the very good bunch of teamates who became such supports for my life.
That apart, i hate to admit. Frisbee took up so much of my mind and body, i realize i lost my initial aim coming into poly.. That aim of becoming an architect is turning vague. Theres only a certain amount of passion one can give upon to things, and as my passion for frisbee burns, my love for architecture start to fade. I know my family's dissapointed, very. They'd do all they can to give me the best for archi, just for a hope of me doing well. By so much luck, i went throu the interview and landed myself a seat in it; but now im screwing everything up, putting so much time into my cca, risking myself to retain the year. Urgh. What the hell im thinking.
Its a lesson, i should never believe i can ever juggle both things.
08 couldnt be worst, as i screwed my priorities, i felt such failure, i lost all that trademark optimism; all the self confidence. I din only tampered my relationship with my family, my low self esteem lose me quite a few frens too.
Urgh. Now writing here, i realize how screwed up my 2008 has been.
My New Year resolutions gonna be damn loong.